Raul

Feliz cumpleaños, Raul ^^
Best wishes for you.
I will always adore you.

Sebelas tahun sudah sejak seorang teman memberikan kartu mainan bergambar Raul. Sejak saat itulah aku mengaguminya. Bukan, aku mengaguminya bukan hanya karena alis tebal, hidung mancung, dan bibir seksinya. 16 tahun sudah dia bermain di Real Madrid. Menjadi kapten Madrid sejak tahun 2003. 323 gol dicetaknya bersama Madrid dan 44 gol dia persembahkan untuk timnas Spanyol. Tak banyak kartu kuning apalagi kartu merah yang dia dapatkan sepanjang karirnya.

Dia tak banyak bicara. Dia membuktikan kualitasnya.

Dialah Malaikat Madrid, Sang Pangeran Bernabeu.

Walk Out

“Anytime I open up to someone, they walk out of my life.”

Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill

Mungkin Ini Saatnya

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

(Broken Strings-James Morrison feat Nelly Furtado)

...yang sudah, ya sudahlah
sejujurnya, akan selalu ada alasan untuk merasa tersakiti dan ditinggalkan
dan tak selalu mudah menghadapinya
tapi, sudahlah...
yang kupunya hanya kenangan kita
aku tak bisa sendirian membuat kenangan baru tentang kita
it's over when it's over

i can run, but i can't hide
there's always time to face it again
maybe this is the time, this is my time

this time, let me learn to be more patient, to be a big hearted person

let it be, let it be...

Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind

Clementine: Fine. Then what, I'm listening.

Joel: I don't know. You erased me. That's why I'm here. That's why I'm doing this in the first place.

Clementine: I'm sorry.

Joel: You...you!

Clementine: You know me. I'm impulsive.

Joel: That's what I love about you.

***

Joel: It would be different, if we could just give it another go-round.

Clementine: Remember me. Try your best. Maybe we can.

***

Clementine: This is it, Joel. It's gonna be gone soon.

Joel: I know.

Clementine: What do we do?

Joel: Enjoy it.

***

Joel: I really should go! I've gotta catch my ride.

Clementine: So go.

Joel: I did. I thought maybe you were a nut, but you were exciting.

Clementine: I wish you'd stayed.

Joel: I wish I'd stayed too. Now I wish I'd stayed. I wish I'd done a lot of things. Oh God,I wish I'd... I wish I'd stayed. I do.

Clementine: Well, I came back downstairs and you were gone!

Joel: I walked out, I walked out the door!

Clementine: Why?

Joel: I don't know. I felt like a scared little kid, I was like... it was above my head, I don't know.

Clementine: You were scared?

Joel: Yeah. I thought you knew that about me. I ran back to the bonfire, trying to outrun my humiliation, I think.

Clementine: Was it something I said?

Joel: Yeah, you said "so go." With such disdain, you know?

Clementine: Oh, I'm sorry.

Joel: It's okay.

Clementine: Joely? What if you stayed this time?

Joel: I walked out the door. There's no memory left.

Clementine: Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Let's pretend we had one. Bye Joel.

Joel: I love you.

Clementine: Meet me...in Montauk.

***

Joel: Wait!

Clementine: What?

Joel: I don't know. Just wait.

Clementine: What do you want, Joel?

Joel: Just wait. I don't know. I don't want you wait for long, just a while.

Clementine: Okay.

Joel: Really?

Clementine: I'm not a concept, Joel. I'm just a fucked-up girl who's looking for my own peace of mind. I'm not perfect.

Joel: I can't see anything that I don't like about you.

Clementine: But you will.

Joel: Right now I can't.

Clementine: But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I'll get bored with you and feel trapped because that's what happens with me.

Joel: Okay.

Clementine: Okay.

***

"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd."
(Eloisa to Abelard, Alexander Pope)

Dear Diary

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Mereka bilang menulis itu menyembuhkan.
Tapi tak ada satu kata pun yang tertulis ketika aku sangat butuh disembuhkan.

Gemini

Karena dialah nyawa dari setiap kata dalam puisi cinta pertamaku.
Selamat ulang tahun, bayang tak tersentuh.

Hello, Bestfriend

Shall we meet again?

Aku Pun Lukaimu

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

(Sorry, Blame It On Me - Akon)

***

Saat kenangan itu terlalu pekat merayapi malam yang makin sunyi...
Maaf, maafkan aku.

Tinggal atau Pergi?

"Kenapa melakukannya?"

"Apa?"

"Mengusir pergi mereka yang membikin luka."

"Aku tidak melakukannya."

"Kau melakukannya."

"Hanya ketika mereka mengganggu di saat aku butuh waktu."

"Hmm... Jangan lagi mengusir mereka, kau akan sendirian."

"Tak akan kuusir jika mereka tak terlampau jauh lewati batas. Aku tak sendirian. Aku bersama mereka yang sudi tinggal."

"Benarkah?"

"Ya. Lagipula, sebenarnya, aku tak mengusir mereka. Aku hanya mempersilahkan mereka yang berniat pergi untuk benar-benar pergi. Aku menyuarakannya dengan lantang saja kali ini."

"Apa maksudmu? Berniat pergi?"

"Mereka memang sudah berniat pergi. Aku hanya mempersilahkannya. Memberi jalan untuk mereka. Jika memang tak ada niat untuk pergi, mereka akan tetap tinggal selantang apapun kupersilahkan mereka pergi. Sekasar apapun kuminta mereka angkat kaki."

"Apa sedari dulu kau seperti ini?"

"Ya. Aku memang seperti ini, tak meminta tinggal siapapun yang sudah berniat pergi. Tak akan ada gunanya."

"Kau tak pernah meminta siapapun untuk tinggal?"

"Tentu saja pernah. Hanya kepada mereka yang berniat untuk tinggal."

"..."

"Percayalah, tak akan ada gunanya meminta orang yang berniat pergi untuk tetap tinggal."

"Mungkin kau benar."

"Aku hanya belajar dari pengalaman. Jadi, kau berniat tinggal atau pergi?"

"Tinggal, untuk sementara ini."

"Buatlah dirimu nyaman."

"Pasti."

"Satu lagi, aku punya hak yang sama denganmu untuk tinggal atau pergi."

Black Coffee

Life is bitter sweet, like a cup of black coffee.

...then, how could I say goodbye to black coffee?

I'll see you soon, life ^^

*picture's taken from deviantart.com